Below are extracts from letters written to a Dutch friend with whom Janina lived first in Palestine and later in Germany. The letters describe her impressions of the Mother and about her life experience in the Ashram.

24.2.1958

It is now necessary that I drop my mental as completely as possible. So She wants it. But it is not easy and for a time I shall stop formulating what is going on with me. This will help me. I want just to live in self-giving only, just to close my eyes and plunge myself into Her.

There are such wonderful articles in all three monthlies and quarterlies, Advent, Bulletin and Mother India, that I am sending you the last number of Mother India too. And from the Advent I am copying here a few sentences from the Mother that have for me a special value:

Perfect surrender

Three figures of total self-giving to the Divine:

(1) To prostrate at His feet giving up all pride in perfect humility.

(2) To lay down one's being before Him, to open out the whole body from head to foot, as one opens a book, spreading out the centres in order to make all their movements visible, with a full sincerity that permits nothing to remain hidden.

(3) To nestle in His arms, melt in Him with a loving and absolute trust. These movements may be accompanied with three formulas or anyone of them, according to the case:

(1) Let Thy Will be done, not mine.
(2) As Thou wilt; as Thou wilt.
(3) I am Thine for eternity.

Generally, when these movements are done rightly, they are followed by complete identification, the dissolution of the ego, bringing the sublime Felicity.


(Ref: A Captive of Her Love, P: 32)

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